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Mothering Isn’t for the Faint of Heart

Sep 11, 2018

Being a mom isn’t for the faint of heart.

Before I tell you about the amazing treat I have for you tomorrow as my Q &A interview with Bonnie Harris, renowned parenting coach and expert goes live, I want to share with you my struggle as a mom this week.

It was the worst kind.

The kind that brings you to your knees and makes you question your faith in all that is good in life.

Here’s what happened: one of my girls hasn’t been able to breathe well for the past month and many doctors’ appointments and tests later, we received some troubling news – that her pulmonary artery is enlarged. This coupled with troubled breathing are telltale signs for Pulmonary Hypertension, an incurable disease with very poor prognosis, both for life expectancy and eventual quality of life.

She is about to go through a series of test to see if this is indeed what she has. These tests are highly subjective and open to interpretation and were being done by random doctors assigned by our insurance company. Yikes!

My husband and I were devastated when we received the news.

It didn’t help that the physician said, “Let’s test for Pulmonary Hypertension because I don’t know what else it could be.”And “If this is what she has, you need to move to sea level immediately.”We currently live at 8,660 feet above sea level.

Wow! So not only potentially devastating news but we would have to move countries asap.

We started researching the disease online but nothing good ever comes from consulting with Dr. Google. We were totally freaked out!

And truth to tell, I was pretty pissed off at the Universe, “Really? We finally have this amazing life full of everything I ever wanted and you’re snatching it away, just like that? With such devastating results?!!!!”

We went into crisis management mode.

We found a good doctor here in Colombia where we live.

I called a close friend in the US who is a pediatrician at a top hospital and she not only talked me down from the ledge by telling me that the doctor here jumped the gun and we really need to get those test results to see what’s really going on, but also offered to show the test results, once we get them, to a world renowned pediatric pulmonologist who is her colleague and friend.

I contacted my own cardiologist in the US who immediately responded that once we have the test results, she can put me in touch with top specialists at Boston Children’s Hospital.

I felt so much relief and such immense gratitude at the thought of being supported by a world class team of physicians.

And I also knew that I needed to attend to my own inner state so I could live with the unknown for the next month or so as all these tests are performed and diagnosis made.

And, more importantly, so I can support my daughter through the ordeal of not being able to breathe.

So, I called on both my shaman and the woman who healed my heart.

My shaman helped me see the bigger spiritual picture of what was going on with my daughter.

She helped me see what my daughter’s body was trying to communicate by her inability to breathe.

She helped me shift things deep inside myself so I could let go of my fear for my daughter’s safety and be there to support her in meeting her deepest soul needs.

She helped me see the gifts in this situation and find deep inner peace.

She helped me get to a place of whatever happens, we will be ok.

Wow! What a gift.

This whole situation has not only already brought me even closer to my daughter and my husband, but has also shown me how many close and wonderful friends I have in Bogota and around the world and that I’m always supported by the Universe, no matter what.

In the Universe’s infinite abundance, I received the support that I needed as soon as I needed it. World class physicians and amazing healers who heal at the soul level. I received deep healing of my own wounds and the lesson that I can trust myself to handle just about anything that comes my way/

Above all, I received deep, deep faith in the goodness of life, even in difficult circumstances.

There is nothing to do now but wait yet I feel peaceful and hopeful. And trusting that all will be as it needs to be.

There’s nothing like being a mom to help us learn our biggest lessons in life.

Speaking of being a mom, I have an amazing treat for you this week. Tomorrow, I will be releasing my Q & A interview with Bonnie Harris, a renowned parenting expert and coach, mama of two grown children and author of several highly-acclaimed books on parenting.

In the interview, she answers your biggest questions and gives us all great tips on how to:

  • Deal with headstrong children
  • Manage screen time with our older children and adolescents
  • Handle single working mom guilt and know whether our children are getting their emotional needs met
  • Effectively set boundaries and handle disrespectful behavior

Bonnie goes deep. She is so wise and experienced that you don’t want to miss this! If you’re not already signed up to watch my interview series, click here to sign up.

If you’re already signed up, you don’t have to do anything. You will receive an email with an access link to the interview tomorrow morning.

As always, I love hearing from you so feel free to leave a comment below or get in touch with me at natalie@nataliematushenko.com.

Happy Tuesday!




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