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How I Got Through Heartbreak
I want to share with you a very personal story about how I got through heartbreak.
Ten years ago, my beloved grandmother passed away.
It was painful yet I felt strangely at peace.
A couple of weeks before my grandmother died, I left my family and young children and flew from South America to Chicago. Even though my grandmother was stable and completely lucid, I had a gut feeling that it was important to see her.
As I was talking to her in my mother’s living room, my grandmother suddenly complained of shortness of breath. I called an ambulance and she was rushed to the hospital.
I slept in my grandmother’s hospital room all week.
I held my grandmother’s hand as nurses poked and prodded her while she begged them to just leave her in peace. I ran interference and sent the nurses away.
I talked to the endless stream of specialists who stopped by my grandmother’s room. I had to send many of them away too. My grandmother was a cardiologist and loved her calling but she was done fighting and didn’t want any more medical treatments. She just wanted to spend her last days in peace.
And yet, strangely through it all, I was at peace.
It was with a heavy heart that I got on a plane to Colombia asking my mom to promise me that she would tell me when it was time for me to fly back out.
I spoke to my grandma on the phone every day until one day two weeks later, I received a frantic call from my mom,“Come. I don’t think she has much time left.”
I got on the next plane and was there by the following morning. I took a taxi to my parents’ house. I rushed into my grandmother’s bedroom.
And yet, I was strangely at peace.
I was grieving too but I was strangely at peace.
This is the power of meditation.
Even though I have meditated most of my adult life, I went through a year where I meditated up to two hours a day.
I started the heavy duty meditating about six months before my grandmother died. I’m 100% sure that this is why I was at peace no matter what was going on around me.
I have to confess that as I have started to work more over the past couple of years, my meditation practice has dwindled to 20-30 minutes per day.
But it feels really great to know that if and when I need it, meditation is there to get me through the toughest of times… not only to survive but to have inner peace.